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December 15, 2010 at 2:22 PM

6 months ago - I was working hard on the verge of promotion,had a date every weekend and during the week was to busy to be home, there always was an event to go to. My phone always had a miss call or text message waiting for me.Female friends said i didn’t have time for them, my boys were like damn where you at? I thought to myself this was just the beginning, had my boss loving me and the girl i wanted asking me out wow this is life! 6months later - Most of my conversations are with a 13 year old and a 56 year old women(family).My phone never rings and no texts, the girl i wanted is long gone so is my job.My female friends have gotten tired of hearing me bitch about the girl i let slip thru my hands or maybe that i don’t turn my attention to liking them. Lately, I spend many days in the corner of my bed hoping to sleep as long as i can but i always end up waking up. With my first thoughts being why this? why now? in 6months I’ve become so weak ,so un-opinionated, so lost. Less then half the man i use to be.To scare to look in the mirror to see what i have become. Yet no one notices or cares. I’m sure i have some part in my demise but 6months ago i never saw this coming.

6 months ago -

I was working hard on the verge of promotion,had a date every weekend and during the week was to busy to be home, there always was an event to go to. My phone always had a miss call or text message waiting for me.Female friends said i didn’t have time for them, my boys were like damn where you at? I thought to myself this was just the beginning, had my boss loving me and the girl i wanted asking me out wow this is life!

6months later -

Most of my conversations are with a 13 year old and a 56 year old women(family).My phone never rings and no texts, the girl i wanted is long gone so is my job.My female friends have gotten tired of hearing me bitch about the girl i let slip thru my hands or maybe that i don’t turn my attention to liking them. Lately, I spend many days in the corner of my bed hoping to sleep as long as i can but i always end up waking up. With my first thoughts being why this? why now? in 6months I’ve become so weak ,so un-opinionated, so lost. Less then half the man i use to be.To scare to look in the mirror to see what i have become. Yet no one notices or cares. I’m sure i have some part in my demise but 6months ago i never saw this coming.