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December 15, 2010 at 4:22 PM

Conversations with an angel…. She tells me school’s rough for her, i can see in here eyes she fighting some of the same demons i fought at her age.”My dreams are slipping away, i want to do more in life” she says..did i have this thought process at 13? i think to myself. Her battles with self esteem and who she is seem to rattle in her mind a lot.In many ways i can relate i was also the short pale one in school growing up.In many ways i can’t, I don’t know what it is to grow up without your real parents there every day, what it is to wonder how come my mother never comes to see me.I was an ugly duckling, she’s a beautiful angel, i would of killed to have her features; blond hair  blue eyes but at 13 I’m sure its more of a burden then advantage. She says “my friends keep pressuring me to get a boyfriend but I’m not ready,” which blows my mind because again i wonder did i think like this? Very much aware for her age I wonder how a 13 year old can be so charming and humble. I call her an angel for many reasons but the one that sticks out is it seems every time i feel i reach the brink of frustration, every time i think maybe if i got up and left and never came back it’d be better for me, every time i think I’m not needed on this planet I’m just taking up space…I have a conversation with an angel..

Conversations with an angel….

She tells me school’s rough for her, i can see in here eyes she fighting some of the same demons i fought at her age.”My dreams are slipping away, i want to do more in life” she says..did i have this thought process at 13? i think to myself. Her battles with self esteem and who she is seem to rattle in her mind a lot.In many ways i can relate i was also the short pale one in school growing up.In many ways i can’t, I don’t know what it is to grow up without your real parents there every day, what it is to wonder how come my mother never comes to see me.I was an ugly duckling, she’s a beautiful angel, i would of killed to have her features; blond hair  blue eyes but at 13 I’m sure its more of a burden then advantage. She says “my friends keep pressuring me to get a boyfriend but I’m not ready,” which blows my mind because again i wonder did i think like this? Very much aware for her age I wonder how a 13 year old can be so charming and humble. I call her an angel for many reasons but the one that sticks out is it seems every time i feel i reach the brink of frustration, every time i think maybe if i got up and left and never came back it’d be better for me, every time i think I’m not needed on this planet I’m just taking up space…I have a conversation with an angel..

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